Letting Go

Nothing big can happen until I let go.  Not in my mind-for that KNOWS you, but in my spirit. 
Lord, I know your plans are great, I know they farpass my limited understanding. 
I thank you for the wake up call.  I cry for your help-help me die to myself.
Help me let go of the petty things. Help me to share my time with everyone who needs him. 
I don't want to be the source that demons go to, causing spiritual way within my household.
Help me to give up all matrialism and put my full faith in your provisions. 
I can plan but you thwart the plans of man.  I can prepare, but only you know my future, therefore my preparations are fruitless. 

Lord I give you my comfort zone.  I give you my children, my family-their safety and well being.  There is NOTHING I can do apart from you.   I give you the four corners of our home, the property that provides a false sense of security.  I give you the desires of my sinful heart-things like financial stability, dream vacations, acceptance into a world in which I do not belong, status among my peers, uniterrupted solitude with my husband.  You are Lord and I am your servant.  All things are yours, as you see fit, as you desire. 

My role as wife is helpmate, not leader.  To support him in prayer through his spiritual battle.  TO support him by providing for our home and family, giving him a haven of rest, hope and peace to retreat from the chaos of the world in which he fights as a soldier for you.  To raise his children in a Godly manner when he is away.  TO cherish him when he is home giving him a taste of your eternal love for his soul  My role is to respect him as you describe n Ephesians 5. 

Lord I KNOW the plans you have for me as described in Jeremiah 29:11, therefore help me to trust you to lay them out.  You are Lord, and I am me, I put my ful trust in you.  I make you Lord over my life.  I trust your will.  I crave your spirit. 

In Jesus Name,
Amen